โจ full length โจ Iโm really struggling again right now, so hereโs a full length video to tide you over ๐ it will be up for 30 days, enjoy it while you can! ๐ฅต
๐ฑ new masturbation clip!? ๐ฑ I know that this is an awfully quiet video for someone who describes herself as the 'queen of dirty talk' but in my defence this is pretty much the first thing i've filmed since my last surgery and I had to start small ๐ฅน Tip $5 if I made you horny Tip $6 if I made you cum Tip $7 if you want to run me a bath and kiss my forehead ๐ผ
โจ updates โจ Hello everyone โฅ๏ธ I am still here - still alive, still fighting. I'm utterly exhausted after visiting with family for a few days, and have a busy weekend ahead. Truthfully the withdrawal process is really weighing on me - it's tough waking up with so much pain (it's like having a really bad flu every morning/if I go too long without painkillers). I don't really feel like 'myself' yet, though a little more is coming back every day. I had a horse riding lesson today and it was so nice to be around horses again - I will try to get a picture to post on social media next time (I have just been practicing leading the horse around, I haven't had any time in the saddle yet but that's ok - slow and steady wins the race). I know you've all been so patient while i've been recovering/sick for so long. I promise it will just be a little bit longer... as soon as i'm weaned off of all of these meds I will have so much more energy and spunk. I can't wait to feel like myself again. โฅ๏ธ
โ๏ธ SNOW NUDES! โ๏ธ swipe โก๏ธ to undress me What better way to spend my post-surgery recovery than trudging uphill through the below-freezing temperature until I feel so dizzy I might fall over!? ๐คฃ Jokes aside, it was wonderful to get out in the snow while it lasted (and Ladybird was STOKED). Plus, I finally had an excuse to wear my insulated cotapaxi overalls ๐ I know these photos aren't much, but I braved the SNOW for you - so please tell me I did a good job ๐คฃ ๐ถโ๐ซ๏ธ kthanksbye
Life stuff: I accomplished SO MUCH today but it was exhausting ๐ด I'm chipping away at all of the tax-related things that I've fallen behind on over the last year... so there are lots of spreadsheets -_- [insert joke about how i'd rather YOU be spreading MY sheets ๐ ] I am taking birdie for a BIG hike tomorrow. Previously her dog walker was hiking her 5x weekly, but it adds up cost-wise, and I am sloooowly transitioning back to exercising regularly... so I'm extra tired lately ๐ฌ I also have family visiting tomorrow and staying the night, so I won't be able to hop on here. I hope everyone's month is off to a great start โจ
๐จ read me ๐จ Howdy! I know you all have lots of questions about my health/recovery, so rather than answering you all individually (since a lot of the questions are similar), please write any questions that you have for me in the comments section of this post ๐ and I'll make a response video answering them all! ๐ฉต Nothing is off limits - if I don't want to answer/don't feel comfortable talking about it, I will just skip that question (No offence will be taken)! Any tips towards the question-answering process are appreciated
Hello lovers and pervs ๐ I am utterly exhausted, but working on my taxes and editing some photos today. Here are a few gorgeous pics from one of my favourite beach spots ๐
I have 52 messages again ๐ฅฒ but I am wayyyy too tired to dive into them right now as I just got home from a long hike ๐ฅฑ no dog walkers on weekends... ๐ด so my underused muscles are aching.
Little by little, things are coming along - only another month or so of painkillers!
Update ๐ working towards some normalcy โจ Iโve been working tirelessly on answering emails, clearing my inbox, editing clips and photos, and of course facing the chaos that is my home (I havenโt properly cleaned since my first operation in February of last yearโฆ thereโs a LOT to do). We (the roommates and I) are spring cleaning and painting in preparation of their upcoming wedding ๐ (how exciting is that?!) If youโve been following my social media accounts you know that Iโve been reading and writing up a storm (I read 20 books in Januaryโฆ donโt ask me what any of them are about, I remember nothing haha). In about 5 weeks I should be fully weaned off of painkillers for the first time in a YEAR! ๐ oh, to be sober and pain free Despite the leaps and bounds Iโve made in my recovery since November, I find myself feeling like Iโm not doing โenoughโ. My goal now is to let go of those expectations by trying not to hold myself to the standards of others - or of who i โused to beโ. Especially causeโฆ Iโm really not the same person anymore ๐คท what I went through was f*cking traumatizing and life altering. So this is me trying to have some grace for myself ๐บ I wanted to do something to celebrate my progress so I booked myself a couple of horseback riding lessons! Itโs something Iโve always loved but hasnโt always been financially accessible, especially when I was wee. Now I know what you might be thinking - can you do equestrian when you have no butthole? ๐ Well, itโs been the required amount of months soโฆ letโs find out ๐ I start next week, and this goal is the cost of two lessons. I have nothing to give you in exchange for your support aside from my appreciation and the promise of some swanky new content as soon as physically possible. Those of you whoโve stuck with me through the last year are the real ones ๐ค Ok enough about me. Iโm off to hard boil an egg (which I am now an expert at, FYI) cause I have been clacking away at my keyboard all afternoon and Iโm ravenous. Love and toots xx Alex Ps - Iโm wearing an ostomy garment from vanilla blush in these photos! Theyโre super comfy and they have options for all gender expressions but I recommend sizing up if youโre like me and you put everything in the dryer ๐
๐จ GREAT NEWS EVERYBODY! ๐จ I am finally down to just 50 unread messages (I started at 200 unread messages, and those are all just from December onwards) I am SO excited to finally clear out my inbox so that I can get back to editing and scheduling new posts for you to enjoy ๐ If you have an important message you need me to read first, please attach a tip to your message (it will bump it to the top of my inbox) otherwise you can expect to hear back from me by the end of next week. YAY! Tips to celebrate my progress? ๐
๐ get ๐ naked ๐ for ๐ Jesus ๐ Because I like to keep you in suspense - here I am getting undressed on the beach before taking nudes with @smut_therapy ๐
I went to the beach to watch the sunset with @smut_therapy while she was in town, so naturally we took turns stripping down for photos! Also, donโt ask me what was happening with my toque. I donโt know ๐ it takes a lot of courage to post an unflattering video of yourself after 12 months of laying flat on your back so please show me some love and be kind ๐ ๐
I ANSWERED SO MANY MESSAGES! ๐ I finally have my inbox down to double digits (I mean it's still at 98 unread messages but... I started today around 130 soooo I think that's pretty darn good) Happy belated valentines - if I made you cum in the past year you owe me a valentine's day present ๐ค โก๏ธ throne.com/goaskalex Or you can throw your v-day pocket change on my ass by tipping one of the options provided ๐ผ I'm hoping to keep the momentum going an answer another big chunk of messages on Monday ๐ช until then ๐ซก
๐จ NEW PHOTOS ๐จ Swipe for upskirt, and a really funny mid-speaking face that I make near the end ๐คฃ I tackled EDITING PHOTOS TODAY! as well as tidying my room, and answering a few more of my messages. I'm down to 'just' 144 messages now ๐ฌ ๐ฅ hopefully that number doesn't multiply by tomorrow ๐ (nobody move)
Thanks for all of your kind messages! These lovely photos were taken by my bestie @ceressinclair - if you're not following her yet you SHOULD be cause she has the best ass on the internet ๐
Updates (and new photos coming soon ๐ธ ) I have been trying to check my messages for at least 30 minutes per day to get through the backlog - I'm down to 145 unread messages (from 200) ๐ต ๐ฅ I'm still struggling quite a bit with my energy daily, as you know I have been on painkillers for the last 12+ months and this is my third time weaning off of them... so I've basically been in withdrawal for the last year ๐ฅฒ which has been rough to say the least. When I am finally off these awful meds we WILL find a way to celebrate! Until then i'm doing my best to remain kind and patient to myself (but it's hard - I just want to hurry up and get ON with my life!)
I'm sure that many of you are waiting for THE pictures - you know, the pictures of where my anus was ๐ฅน I know I'd be curious if I were you! I am still healing 'down there', and want to feel 100% confident in myself before showing off my booty-hole-free-body. Rest assured I will be taking photos/videos soon, though I am a bit extra-sensitive about my looks (I mean, I've been bedridden for most of the last year so i'm not exactly as toned as I once was) and will require extra compliments and praise. ITS NOT A PRAISE KINK (or maybe it is, who's to say ๐ )
Anyways, thanks for reading/being patient โฅ๏ธ Tips are not expected but always appreciated โจ
My friend @smut_therapy is visiting for a few hours and weโre going out to enjoy the sun. Tip $5 and we will flash our tits for you no matter where we are ๐ฑ