The first private meeting with the Mistress took place thanks to a task. "Make me a video, without your face, with My name written on your chest saying you are my collectable & your happy to be part of my collection, than tell me why".
As an aspiring content creator, what better request? I thought a lot about how to make it.
I chose the Nadu position, which indicates the slave's willingness to serve. In this position, the slave knees back on her heels maintaining an excellent posture with her back straight, shoulders thrown back, her head up, her breasts thrust forward, her belly in and with her legs wide open.
On the floor there are open paper boxes, which recall the simplicity of myself at the beginning of the journey, before the transformation that will take place thanks to the Mistress. Around my neck the pink collar with my name, Birdy. The Mistress' initials hang on a black necklace. On my chest, as requested, I previously wrote the Mistress' name with a red marker. Red writing like the red heart bodysuit, with butt flap and long sleeves. In the first meeting, as nudity was not requested, I preferred to leave few parts of the body uncovered. For this reason I also wore black nipple covers. Fishnet stockings, but no shoes. Always for a theme of simplicity.
I'm ready to record. It's the first time I've recorded my voice. The camera at the Mistress's height, looking at me from top to bottom.
"I'm your collectable and I'm happy to be apart of Your collection, because of Your style and experience. The attention and caring You give to those who rely on You are truly priceless. Mistress, I am in Your hands, ready to become what You wish me to become."
Didn't I say that the Mistress is beautiful? No, although of course She is. She is very beautiful. But I assumed that was not the main motivation to be part of Her collection. It's not just Her beauty that struck me among the many Mistresses... but Her style and elegance.
The Mistress liked my video presentation! But above all, and this is what pleased me most, my commitment to the task was appreciated. I think that every task, even the one that seems simplest or most insignificant, must be returned to the Mistress so that it is worth using Her time, and is not just the satisfaction of a need of the slave.
We are the instrument of Her entertainment, not vice versa! It took me a long time to understand this, I will always thank those who taught me and made me understand.
Unexpected, really, the prize also arrived for me. I am granted a cum! On the "only" condition of using 2 fingers and not the entire hand, because what cannot be called a penis does not need a hand. And there's nothing to stroke at the end of the day.
Wow! It's certainly not a bad surprise, and between the excitement accumulated in recent days and the video that the Mistress sent me, the desire now is great. But no running to the bathroom to masturbate. I'm Birdy, I'm a girl. And I would like to be a good girl, and do it in a prepared way and with a certain style.
After asking permission to avoid hand contact with my clitty and use the magic wand instead, I started to prepare myself. Personal collar and necklace with the Mistress' name of course, first of all. Then nice roomy women's panties to keep the clitty at bay. Finally pink and black fishnet lingerie, because I didn't want to be all naked. Kneel position with legs slightly open, always on the open boxes on the ground. One hand behind my back, the other holding magic wand.
I restarted the video of my Mistress on my laptop, to feel Her presence in front of me.
Then I pointed a camera at myself and start recording, in case the Mistress is interested in seeing this moment.
Let's start. OMG, definitely short moment. Maybe less than a minute of vibrating the magic wand and I've already released. What a shame. I feel the drops of cum run through my underwear, and drip onto the cardboard.
The refractory period takes over, along with a sense of guilt. I enjoyed it, yes, but I feel selfish. I need to analyze this feeling better.
Some of the challenging moments for a collared slave, although it might seem absurd, are those of inactivity. Yes, exactly. I mean when the Mistress doesn't give you orders or tasks - and there are these moments, for a thousand reasons, it's normal - and you remain owned and so you have to avoid having fun alone (at least not without communicating it first) or taking initiatives. However, in a regime of chastity and therefore with sexual arousal always high day after day, it is not easy. Especially if you then take a look on social media. But I'm sure it's one of those things that the slave has to learn over time.
You simply have to stay in your place, patient, waiting.
I'm lucky, perhaps: I'm not, even when uncollared, one of those who enjoy themselves alone with dildos, butt plugs or other sexual games. When I do it, I do it for someone else's will or pleasure.
This doesn't mean that you can't try to dare or that you have to remain without doing anything. Now, for example, I thought about buying a new dress for myself, as a gift for the Mistress, Who has only known me for a short time. Even if She didn't ask me, I would like to surprise Her, buy something especially for Her: a dress I've never worn, like the one from the first date. Something simple, because I don't know the style She will want for Her Birdy.
Take care of myself, get ready and dress well and take a nice photo to send to Her. So I made use of my idle time today.
The purchase of women's shoes - I mean, those with heels - was one of the last steps I took, and which perhaps closed my circle of feminization. It was a fundamental item that I was missing. Yes, I've worn them, borrowed, in a few real sessions, but I've never had a pair of my own. I still remember when the new shoes arrived and I opened the box. Black, shiny, with nice heels. Sure, not too high heels, but still (scaring) heels. I last used them 4 months ago, in a session where I also had some practice walking in heels. The Mistress liked the photos with the new dress, and She asked me to wear it together with the heels, to see it on me while I move. To help me, She sent me the video "How To | Walk Like a Model in Under a Minute". So today I put on black panties and pantyhose, then the dress, and the shoes. For an hour I did a few things to get used to the dress and shoes. Then I recorded the video where I tried to walk like a model. I'm very ashamed to compare myself to a model, light years away from me, but in my own small way I tried to do my best.
I have a small mouth. Especially the opening. In fact, I have never been able to fit a normal sized ball gag into my mouth. A mouth gag that I can use is a dick gag that has a small ball with, obviously, a dick attached. Having used it for some time in the past, even for hours at a time, this little cock that pressed on my tongue (and throat if I made some movements) also unintentionally trained my gag reflex. It's true, the mouth is small and I can't accommodate big cocks, but the gag reflex is quite good. Having a small mouth opening, the thinner the dick (for example that of some strap-ons which are long and thin), the deeper (and annoying) it is for me. But I've always tolerated those well too. Tonight the Mistress asked me to see how well I can suck a dick, in a feminine way of course and showing how much gag reflex I have. Using my penis-shaped dildo, of course. So here I am in a miniskirt (new, just picked up after 1 month of waiting) and fishnet stockings, and with a small striped top. In short, slightly sexy clothing. And off we go, a bit of foreplay and then a deep throat. But no happy ending for anyone, neither for the fake penis, nor for me, who remains in chastity. Did it turn me on to do it? Honestly? Yes.
Many many years ago, the Mistress who introduced me to feminization (a limit for me at the time) had set Herself a goal with me, that of having an elegant and well-mannered secretary, as well as feminine of course. Feminine and classy.
In subsequent experiences I was also asked to be feminine at times but more vulgar, like a slut. It was nice to try out those roles too, there's no doubt about that. I always follow the will of Who holds my leash, it is right that She decides what I should become. But the first experience is never forgotten.
So, when the Mistress told me "I must say your legs in fishnets, heels & skirt gives you a classy but yet you want to be fucked look with out being slutty", my mind flew back to those first moments with the feminization, and what I had learned.
So it was a double pleasure to receive that appreciation, beyond what the Mistress has in mind for me.
What a shame, I feel really disappointed in myself and mortified. The Mistress allowed me to enjoy a second time. She said I did well on the tasks so I deserved it. Always with the magic wand massager and with the only condition of dressing in something that made me feel sexy. Everything perfect therefore, excellent conditions. I had in my head the discussion we had the day before with the Mistress about the sissy cleaning the house, so I chose some fishnet underwear and the white lace apron, the sissy one.
Unfortunately, I don't know why, the recording stopped earlier than expected, the final part of the video is missing - the part where you can clearly see the black fishnet outfit when I take off the white sissy apron and then use the magic wand ... I'm mortified, I don't know why this happened!
But that wasn't what made me feel ashamed. Maybe it's even better that there is no evidence. This time unfortunately the clitty didn't stay at bay and I got an erection, that's not good, I'm so sorry!
Clitty hidden in cage, pussy embellished with a jewel
Also to punish the bird that was not kept at bay, the first wearing of the cage came for the Mistress, upon explicit request. he care She has for me is always admirable, She took care that I started wearing it for a limited period of time, since I hadn't worn it for a while.
I didn't want to make this too boring for the task proofing video, so I introduced two variations to the dressing.
First: a pair of "new" homemade underwear, with a practical zip and, above all, the Mistress' initials. Second: a beautiful gem to decorate the pussy! It's been a while since I wore the gem anal plug, and in general I haven't penetrated the pussy, but the pain is nothing when you want to surprise the Mistress.
Yes, my pussy is tight. It is a bit natural, but it has also been used very little in recent months. So The Mistress and I started the training.
Yesterday - Metal gem plug - 20 minute walk outside + about 1 hour standing still or sitting Today - Silicone tail plug - 2h - Chores around the house
Gem plug: so nice, but help the metal base between the butts is quite a nuisance (even if it doesn't hurt) Tail plug: nice as well (and the zippered panties are so comfortable to let the tail out) and definitely the silicone is more comfortable to hold it for a long time
The unplugging moment is one of those I look forward to the most. Not because I can't wait to remove the butt plug, it's often comfortable too. But that's because it's easy to relax, feeling the muscles of your anus gently pulled outward by the plug that's partly inside you. So you relax, push on one side and pull on the other, and once the big part comes out, the little hole quickly closes again, ready for the next time.
Unexpectedly, after the weekend came the possibility/permission to have an orgasm. Without touching the clitty obviously, via magic wand massager. As always now. I would have also been allowed to see porn, but I preferred not to, it would have been too much, and perhaps not even necessary. This week I have had many exciting opportunities. The Mistress noticed it from my nipples in the various photos. What would I have looked for if I had to choose porn? I would say a pegging video of a beautiful sissy. No cage, I chose a pair of tight red panties - red like the bra - so my little bird couldn't escape. And luckily it was so, I didn't want to feel the shame of the last time again. And then off you go, having found the most comfortable position via magic wand. Until it gets all wet. I had a cup cake ready. Not by chance. I wet it with my cum deposited on the panties. I refrained from eating it, I wasn't asked to do it anyway. But would it have been the right gesture to compensate for the pleasure I had had alone, without the Mistress?
The Mistress saw my leopard (or tiger?) dress in one of my old posts, and She liked it. So she asked me for a catwalk in that dress. Needless to say, it was a pleasure for me to wear it for Her, along with the necklace with Her initials. Since it's Locktober for me too and therefore a butt plug and cage would also have been a must, I wore fishnet stockings with open crotches, in order to make everything more accessible. I remained dressed as a leopard for several hours, after having put on the chastity cage and inserted the butt plug. The little hole was quite trained, so sitting on the butt plug to insert it was easy. And the tail attached to the dress, when I was sitting on her chair holding it between my butt, made the base of the plug stick to my pussy, making it feel good inside, but without discomfort. The catwalk has become a "leopard-walk": it's impossible with that beautiful tail not to get on all fours and shake! Everything was actually very comfortable, from the fishnet stockings that warmed my legs and the tight dress, to the butt and cage. So I thought I'd take it one step further. With my little hole now relaxed I tried to take my feared (at least psychologically) dick-shaped dildo to penetrate my pussy a little: it slipped in and out very easily! And after hours of constant excitement... now I'm back to my Locktober.
I haven't been well for a few days so I thought I'd give the Mistress a little surprise. A cute bunny. Bells on the ankles and neck, headband with rabbit ears, and finally a nice pom pom butt plug which, once inserted, becomes my bunny tail, black like the ears. Combined with the black fishnet stocking all over the body, softened by a second pink fishnet dress. The insertion of the butt plug was not painful at all, just a lot of lube previously put on the pussy and a lot of delicacy. Of course I was in the cage, it's still locktober. And shooting the video (and then editing it) was so exciting that I would say I made up for the 2-3 days off when I wasn't feeling so well.
At that time I had a long-distance relationship with a Mistress, Who after a few months of ownership asked me, with great respect and delicacy, if I felt like overcoming what was my limit at the time: feminization.
I had never explored this aspect. I had been humiliated a few times with penetrations and by being made to wear some female clothing, but nothing more.
Thus began a short but intense feminization course. It was a long distance relationship, so She got me a blind date at the house of a Mistress Who lived closer to me, with whom She had previously agreed on what to do with me. Unbeknownst to me, so every appointment was a surprise. I had given a budget to the Mistress with which She could send the clothes she wanted for me before the appointment.
Those appointments then continued for some time. A total of 4 or 5 if I remember correctly. They taught me to be more feminine, to put on makeup, to walk in heels, to move in a more masculine way.
I remember one detail well. At the end of each session I expected (and hoped) to be penetrated, to crown my commitment. But it never happened.
Without that first experience, I wouldn't have gotten to where I am today.
So far, the largest butt plug, the 1.6 inch wide one, has been enough. It was part of a kit in which there were other, smaller ones, which I honestly never used. Having started a pussy training journey, the Mistress's request for a bigger one is inevitable. Which I hadn't though, since I had never put so much effort into training the hole. So the Mistress asked me a few days ago to buy some bigger plugs. I was surprised by the request, and also grateful: it is not a given that the slave is allowed to give himself gifts. We did some online shopping together to choose the plug for the upgrade, and we ended up with 2 "long anal butt plugs in ultra-soft liquid silicone". I call them snakes. At their widest point they are both 2 inches wide. One is 12 inches long and the other is 19.6 inches long. Both arrived today. Now I await instructions, while I wonder if I will really be able to get them inside... and what sensations they will give.
I don't believe it. If I were another person I would find it hard to believe it, or I would think there was a trick. Instead it's all true, the whole snake has entered, the longest one! I started with the longest one because, although longer, it reached the final 2 inches in diameter more linearly and smoothly. It seemed more relaxing to insert. In case of pain I could have stopped before the end and relax, or made a few more stops. Even the thinner and more flexible tip I thought would better help me pass the curve at the end of the rectum, which I read was a first obstacle to deeper insertion. Well, in the morning after breakfast I put on the dildo which has now become the smallest, keeping it until lunch. Then, at lunch I took a moment to myself to calmly try the insertion. The clitty was now relaxed and accustomed to a foreign body, while I was agitated. Like in the moment before entering a medical examination. The leopard dress is the one most suited to the snake's habitat. As well as the Mistress' favorite dress so far. Unexpectedly everything went in without any pain and without too much effort. I passed the dreaded sigmoid bend with some rotational movements of the snake. Then, once that passed, everything was smoother, up to 2 inches in diameter and then to the final plug, slowly and without pain. In the end, here it is all inside. And plugged. I relaxed a little. I wasn't able to focus too much on the sensations, I preferred to let it all out first to see if everything was OK. I believe it, it was incredibly exciting.
Early in the morning the pussy is also asleep, so it doesn't always receive the butt plug easily. But this morning she was good, a little lubricant and she welcomed him without any particular stretching operations. Then I got ready for work. Cage, zippered panties, black tights and dress bought for the Mistress some time ago. Ready for work - while pussy relaxed with the morning guest - and for the future lunch break, during which pussy would receive the snake for the second time.
Here it is, the snake has arrived. Since it wasn't the first time, I was certainly more relaxed, certainly from an emotional point of view. I therefore had the opportunity to concentrate better on emotions. Sense of fullness, but not annoying. I held it for about 20 minutes. No annoyance, non-invasive presence I would say. But it wanted to go out. The snake wanted to get out at all costs though, it's not easy to keep it inside. I had the feeling that if I didn't hold it down it would come out. I finally let it out. It's always impressive to see it come out. I have to evaluate if and how to make him stay inside for longer.
This morning I was home alone so I prepared some new content. Theme start of a new year -) Fresh from total body waxing, I took the opportunity to take some full nude photos, to try on some little gems and then, given the Christmas break, I also checked if my pussy was still elastic... ;-) Let's start with the beautiful soft skin, embellished with a nipple jewel that I bought some time ago but hadn't used yet. A small ring with four perpendicular screws that tighten the nipple. Nipple clamps are tight enough not to slip out, but not too tight to hurt, so much so that I kept them on all day, even under my clothes...
Oops... ready in my outfit, with the clitty already caged, but I forgot the jewel for the pussy! OK, no problem! I widen the little hole a little with the heel of my shoe, after having cleaned it well with my tongue, and then I insert the gem plug. And go! Let's put our jeans back on and we're ready!
Oh yes, after the Christmas break, after taking some full nude photos fresh from full body waxing, I also checked if my pussy was still elastic. I tested the elasticity of my little hole, trying the soft penis-shaped dildo, standing up, without too many preparations, just the right amount (not excessive) of lubricant. Wow! He entered and exited pleasantly, a sign that the training of recent months has survived the break...
The completely shaved body is so inspiring... Here's a solo training session, to keep me fit during the less intense periods. Here is today's training schedule. - I start with the nipple clamps, playing with them a bit to get used to the pain. - Then the hole is widened a little to accommodate the gem butt plug. - After admiring the little hole with the gem embedded in it, it's time for the dildo in the shape of a real cock, for some muscle training. Ah, all strictly without interruptions, and with the chastity cage.
I've always been told I have a nice ass... ...let's spank it then! But alone it's no fun. And I've had traumatic encounters with whips in person. Several years ago I tried different whips with a Miss (maybe I still have the video) and noted the pain caused for each one. And so far it had been painful and funny. But a few months later with a Miss I used the safe word for the first time (at least so far)...
Anyone Who has played with me a bit knows that I love the anal hook, it's so exciting. To see, to wear and to be seen worn. Even though I wasn't asked by Miss, I took the liberty of buying this constriction device that I found on offer. Basically a collar tied to the anal hook, with attached handcuffs to put your hands behind your back to immobilize you. I tried it (by myself) for the first time. Just the time for the test. In particular I was interested in knowing whether it was feasible to eat from a bowl on the floor with this type of restriction. The answer is yes... but definitely with difficulty. And it's better of course. I can't wait to play it for someone to enjoy.
"Birds and cupcakes" - Episode 1 - "The aspiring assistant"
Here's what I've been working on during this long break: the new BDSM series called "Birds and cupcakes".
In the first episode Claude applies to be the Mistress's assistant and shows up at the appointment, where after a series of tasks it becomes clear that behind the Mistress there is a more complex organization...
