Just as I learned about kink dynamics and the power of vulne..
Added 2023-03-14 01:01:05 +0000 UTCJust as I learned about kink dynamics and the power of vulnerability in soothing our wounds; learning to trust other creatives and collaborate on these projects has soothed a part of me that's felt overly self critical, jaded, depleted, used, and stagnant. It's difficult for me to post so much of myself on a site like this one. It's expected of me and maybe even taken for granted. It's a privilege that anyone enjoys me enough to want to support me in any way. But in an age of overconsumption, an image I share that's brought me so much power and joy will be easily dismissed and forgotten. I ask myself if my intention to share this side of myself with people who can't appreciate it lessens it's power. This is exactly why I encourage my subs to message me have a meaningful relationship with me. I won't be your girlfriend, I probably won't even be your Domme. But this exchange is real and sacred. You've invested in me, you desire to connect with me. And the vulnerability I share with you, when I share my ranting, my ideas, and my body is also a desire to connect with YOU. When I started Fans, I was advised not to concern myself with the artsy photo shoots. My Fans want intimacy, they want cellphone photo of my ass or me in bikinis. They want authenticity, and so it's important I post 4 times per day because if I don't deliver what they want, they'll leave. Is this authentic? Is posting a cleavage shot out of anxiety for losing your attention more authentic then sharing a photo I fully invested myself in? My time, money, creativity, mentality went into birthing something that was truly transformative for me in this moment. Ofc I can't afford to take photos like this all the time (I'd sure like to!), but you can't pay for "real" and "authentic". It blooms with time, consistency, and dedication.
