KINDA LONG SAD POST AHEAD IM SORRY . . . So as you guys know..

KINDA LONG SAD POST AHEAD IM SORRY . . . So as you guys know, I’ve recently went back on medication for my mental health, and finally started to get diagnosed properly for the first time, and it’s been a wonderful, uplifting experience for the most part. However, one of the side effects is gaining weight, and it’s something that happened to me. It might not seem that noticeable, but to me, someone who suffered from a horrible eating disorder most of my life and currently in recovery, this hits me a lot harder. I should be like “wow! My ass is getting huge! I’m so happy!” But on the inside I want to crawl out of my skin as I try to love it at the same time. Today I tried on a few outfits of mine because I wanted to stream, and none, literally none of them fit right anymore, and my ass was too big for all of my jeans/shorts/skirts I just bought. So short story, I’m losing my mind because I’m having to rebuy my entire wardrobe when I didn’t plan on it because everything I wear now gives me super bad anxiety and I’m stuck in sweatpants and a baggy shirt again. I’ll be going shopping today for some new clothes and necessities, and I’ll put up a goal for just a few pants and things to help me jumpstart the process of redoing my wardrobe to fit me. It’s completely optional, but if you want to help me out, I’ll be sending out a special extra video to those who do that’ll be for their eyes only. I will not be posting that video to the feed or anywhere, so you can have a special treat just for you for being such an angel and helping me out. I am sorry this was so long, and I try to keep my personal struggles off the platform, but this is something that really affects my confidence and I don’t ever want to fake it with you guys. I really appreciate even a like or comment if you can’t tip, just to cheer me up 💕 I hope you guys have a wonderful weekend! I’ll probably make the video either tomorrow or Monday! **TLDR:** I have to rebuy my entire wardrobe because I gained weight from my medication unexpectedly and now none of my pants fit my bigger ass. If you help contribute to the goal, I’ll send you a special video that will not be posted anywhere but only for those who help the goal 💕