EDIT: HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! 💗🦃 I never know how much I shou..

EDIT: HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! 💗🦃

I never know how much I should talk about my mental health on here. On one hand, that’s not why any of us are here - if anything, this is a place to escape the BS of our everyday lives. On the other hand, though, I have loved being very open and personal with you all and giving you every part of myself, not just the shiny and carefully selected nudes. I am certainly an over-sharer, which like all things in life, is only good in moderation. I never want to make anyone uncomfortable by making comments that are “too real” or suddenly cast a sober light on the conversation that was not anticipated or asked for. However, I need to explain my absence without warning these past several days. I sincerely love and appreciate you all, and I do not want you to think I take your support for granted and openly disrespect you by disappearing out of no where.

In this day in age, I would wager that about half or a little more than half of us are on a medication - or two or ten - of some sort. For the past several years, I’ve been on a concoction of varying meds, all fairly intense. It’s been a never ending cycle that you might be familiar with: get new prescription, start the new med, experience the new side effects for the first couple weeks, try to gage the real effect(s), make it to the follow up appointment, have the prescription changed, and repeat it all over again. And it’s always been funny to me - that sometimes the side effects are the very things you’re aiming to get rid of.

Part of the reason I escaped to this cabin in the middle of no where was to spare people around me from my insane irritability and mood swings while playing this game of musical medications. I should have realized how easy it would be for me to completely isolate myself from all socialization - and I mean all socialization. Even though I know it is self destructive, because I really love socializing and need it. Anyway... what I’m trying to express is how sincerely sorry I am to have disappeared once again. I never want ANYONE to think that I am ignoring them out of disinterest or forgetfulness. It couldn’t be further from from what is actually happening. I guess what I want you to know is that I will never take your generosity for granted, and that I will do everything possible to make up for my episodes of absence. Thank you always ❤️

P.S. here is my photo shoot with the fire I failed to build the other night, lol