


I got up to record a video explaining, but can't really keep it together enough for that. So a couple pics and an update/request for any help that can be given in a crisis situation. I'm currently in a hotel with my three kids for the night, and no idea where I'm going after. I moved in with a family member a few months ago, thinking it would help me get stable after the situation with my ex. My entire family pushed me to, in spite of my reservations. It ended up being a lot worse than I even imagined, a lot worse than things were with my ex- now I understand why I missed the red flags. The move itself drained me financially, and the family member I was with was incredibly invasive and disruptive, not only to my ability to work and make content, but even with parenting and basic survival tasks- food, sleep, etc. I haven't been able to recover, because the entire summer consisted of me trying to change things to make work time, only to have her adjust as well. I was hoping to find a way to get caught up enough for a planned move. The summer was rough, but a couple weeks ago, she was caught hitting my 3yo. When told she is not to touch my kids, the response was extreme psychological and emotional warfare on me, and my kids when she was able to speak to them. I kept my kids locked in my room when we had to be there for their physical safety while trying to find somewhere else to go with nothing working out. When trying to get them out for school yesterday, she went for the 3yo again. I told him to go to my room, but she was close behind and was able to get in before I could lock her out. I stood between them, and was hit and shoved while being screamed at and threatened. I only repeatedly yelled at her to get away, take her hands off me, leave my kids alone, and things of that nature. My older ones left for school in the rain without proper attire (I was supposed to drive them due to the bad weather, and they couldn't get their things with what was going on). Once they left, she backed off to laugh about me being a bad mom over them walking in those conditions. I grabbed a few things and left with my youngest. I spoke with the police, but they were reluctant to do anything with an elderly woman and told me I just needed to get my kids somewhere safe immediately, because an investigation would just add more stress with the same result (me leaving). We all stayed in a hotel last night, and I hoped to find something weekly that would be more affordable for tonight. When I tried to check into the place I reserved this afternoon, they did not have a room (and there was an incident being handled by the police when I arrived). The alternative offered was a single bed, not enough room to even put an air mattress down, water actively leaking onto the floor with (soaked) towels down to catch it, missing appliance, horrible smell... and I sat there for a while trying to figure out if I could make it work, but it was that bad. I spent the rest of the day trying to find anything appropriate to book for a week, and ultimately just had to get another hotel for the night. This has me worried I won't have enough to get something with a weekly discount now. I'm not getting support. It's tied up in appeals with more immediate channels, and court dates are more than 6 months out right now. I need to be able to stay somewhere for a long enough time to work while my kids are in school rather than checking out every morning and scrambling to find something in the evening. I don't have money for a security deposit. Right now, the only thing I can think of is weekly rentals until I can work to make enough to get into a monthly short term rental like an airbnb. I need financial help, and anything anyone is able to give is appreciated. If you'd like it to be a transaction, I can do pre-made videos or bundles. I'm open to custom orders, but the turnaround time will likely be fairly long until I'm not moving daily or weekly. It feels wrong to ask for help like this, but I don't know what else to do. I can't rely on my family for help. The simple version is that they don't have the means or they're just as problematic. My ex was very isolating and controlling, so any friends I have are very new. They're emotionally supportive, but that's the extent. Anything helps. I'm just trying to keep three kids sleeping in a safe place, fed, clean and in school, and I'm worried about how to keep up. I'm exhausted and feel broken and just need help getting to a stable place where I can actually regroup, take care of what I need to and get back to working on things regularly and reliably. I've been trying to believe I can get ahead on my own, but I'm feeling really hopeless at this point.