Eeeeeee I am once again apologizing for not being able to st..

Eeeeeee I am once again apologizing for not being able to stick to my attempted schedule >.< more about that below optionally, but first I wanna say that I will for sure both be sending rebillers the promised exclusive clip, and also posting the whole pic/short clip set, TONIGHT. I really don't mean for everything to end up being pushed back lately, I'm just trying to do my best through not-the-best times 🥺 In the meantime though, here's a little teaser... don't mind the clothes on the floor please! And more on the schedule inconsistency lately, for anyone who is interested: I don't want or mean to make *everything* about mental health. But truthfully for me lately, even when I'm putting in concerted effort (planning/planners and lists, reminders, positive thoughts, attempts to eat better and exercise, etc) towards being productive and getting "better", it can still be a struggle for me to accomplish the bare minimum most days recently. Because of the mental health issues I deal with on a daily basis, my emotions, mood and even my energy all feel very volatile at all times, with me at the whim of whether it will be a calm and 'normal' day or a severe one. It's honestly hard to even keep myself awake for even half the day sometimes because the stress/toll it takes can be so exhausting, which is weird to think at my age. But please know that I'm still trying! And beyond that, planning to seek professional help and likely resume meds that helped in the past soon. I don't know if I'll be able to get therapy/insurance for another month or so (I've been financially supporting my roommate while they're between jobs) but until then I've been trying to employ little tools that help me, things like using more lists and reminders to help me get important things done since even brushing my teeth and eating are easy to skip on hard days, let alone remembering to post and respond to messages on several sites and all. I'm taking baby steps but I AM always working towards some sort of progress! Some days things get derailed or I'm just a little too stressed to handle whatever I had planned but those days are decreasing slowly and I'm going to try to keep it that way. Thank you to everyone who has been around and supported me through any part of it- I'm continuously grateful every little step of the way, every day 💗💕