๐ LIFE-UPDATE ๐Hey everyone! ๐ฅบ First of all thank you all fo..
Added 2025-03-04 18:41:43 +0000 UTC๐ LIFE-UPDATE ๐Hey everyone! ๐ฅบ First of all thank you all for being here. โค๏ธ I owe it to all of you to have a flat, have meals and being able to get my health shit together. ๐ฅโค๏ธ My gratitude is infinite. I made a voice mail speaking of my struggles with CPPS (Chronic Pelvic Pain Syndrome) which results in me having constant pain since 03/24 after an anal fissure. From there on I had pain in my entire genital area. ๐It literally tears me apart because 1. it hurts like a bitch (8 from 10) and 2. that i am sexually disabled through it, altough I would love nothing more than a dick up my ass... ๐ฅบ๐ญ๐ It drives me mad. :(It makes me so fucking depressed to not be able to have sex because of this one injury. Sex was mostly my only euphoria or time I felt loved. ๐ I wasnt diagnosed till the end of january 2025. Before i had NO clue what was wrong with me! ๐ญ I was at a complete loss and done, no one found a thing.But today I had physio-therapy and the guy gave me a plan & did his work. He seems very competent and I am very hopeful, that I'm painfree soon! ๐ฅณโค๏ธ I wish for nothing more, not gonna lie. The pain makes me cry a lot and just ruins me at times. ๐And that's not all: I have Bipolar II, ADHD and OCD on top. Those make me overthink everything and paralyze me so often. ๐ตโ๐ซ Also for my mood: It is swinging so damn much! One minute I'm happy, next minute because some minor thing happened, I am depressed! It's exhausting. ๐ฅฒ๐ช Those three are a bad combo. Anyways, I am hopeful to become healthy again and just wanted to let you in on things. โค๏ธ I'm trying my best to make new content and get into things again. Soon I'll be a pretty and cute girl again! ๐ฅบโค๏ธ๐ฅณKisses Lucy ๐
