On a mission. The love of my life, my xxxx xxx the reason fo..

On a mission. The love of my life, my xxxx xxx the reason for my existence, even though I am the target for his pain, and the one who bears the brundt of his anger, I will always be here as his support, however he needs me to be. When pushed away, I am completely lost, without a purpose, from east to west on the land, existing just above the surface. He had only done so twice before, both times his life was in danger both times I was right by his side until he was strong enough to not need me there anymore. I will always have the bigger shoulders he needs me to have to take the pain from him away. He has already fought one hell of a fight, and while he had won the first battle, he lost his arm, but not his charm. hehe He not only has to learn to cope with this disability and overcome the adversity of being abnormal, in a society full of normal, he has to live with the fear of 1 bad scan, as he tries to be a regular xxzz man. He's amazing, both my xxxx are, and I need to get back to them as the scan results show from the bone now gone, to the lungs its potentially spread. This is the purest love of all, a mothers love to her xxxx and when he said that he feels like he lives in the eye of the storm, and the thought of having to push through it again, just isn't something he forsees in his realm of possibilities, this completely broke my every heartstring. The insanity, I can't lose it now, thats the easy way out, and not for me, but the strength I must find to be the one he needs me to be. I feel the negativity, like its already taken ahold of me, but I have to bring only postive energy. I spent the days awaiting his need for me, last time, out in the desert, trying to hide from humanity, but the worst found me, and took me of everything, putting me in this new reality. The only thing I could think to do, was to collect rock, and harness the universe's energy, and the day my xxx called upon me, I had a bed full of pure universal healing antiquities. Please, I beg of the evils and the jealousy to find someone else to play your games with and leave me be, I dont have the time to play stupid games like you do. For my xxx has called me to help him through something much bigger than you. I am simply trying to not put my burdens on him, be self supporting and right there as be needs me.